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Having trouble sleeping tonight, so I decided to write and give all of you an update. After a while, it gets lonely at night without the entire family home. Hopefully writing a little bit will make me feel better. I didn't get to go to the hospital today--I think that's part of the reason I'm bummed out tonight.
Dani Jo has been doing pretty good with her breathing the past few days. The problem now is with her small intestine. She's not having regular bowel movements. It seems like we've been going through the same cycle the past two weeks. They feed her with the bottle for about two days. She doesn't have a bowel movement, her stomach becomes hard and swollen, they stop feedings, give her an enima, she poops and then we start the whole cycle over again.
They thought it was Hirshsprung's Disease originally (when a part of your intestines doesn't have nerve endings to push the waste through the bowels. They did a biopsy to test for this about 2 weeks ago. Results were inconclusive. They did a contrast enima a few days ago. They discovered a portion of her small intestine that is very narrow. This is called a stricture. They say they can do surgery to widen this part. Today the doctor came up and said they wanted to do another biopsy on the narrow part to see if it is HD or a stricture or both. Amanda and I have become frustrated over the past few days. Nobody wants their child to have a surgery, but this feeding/not feeding cycle is becoming frustrating. If she needs surgery, then I wish they would hurry up and do it. We feel like we are going in circles. The bowel problem is the only thing keeping her from coming home. They had told us that she might come home on Monday. That's not going to happen.
If they do the biopsy on Monday, it will probably be Wed. or Thurs. before we hear anything about it. If we do surgery, it will probably take a few days to get that done, and then there would be recovery from surgery. Who knows? All I know is that we want our little girl home. We got a new lead doctor two days ago. It seems like we are back at step one with the new doctor. All we ever hear is "the doctor is coming up tomorrow to take a look at her", but tomorrow never seems to come. Sometimes I feel like Dani Jo is just another patient to some of the doctors and that it's no big deal to them if the doctor doesn't get it done today. They always say, "well, the doctor couldn't make it up today, but they are coming tomorrow." I know it's just another day to some people, but to us it is another lonely day without our daughter at home. To Jordan and Jamie, it's another day without Mommy and Daddy at home. It gets frustrating after several of these days.
All of the medical equipment and supplies is at the house. We got a call from my insurance company today and they have approved 12 hours of at home nursing for Dani Jo. That whole thing has been another area of stress. There are different programs out there to help with medical care and assistance for her, but it seems like you have to be denied from 800 different things to be eligible for other things. We applied for Medicaid knowing we would get denied, but we have this denial to apply for other things. We tried to apply for SSI, but she doesn't have her social security card back yet. Taking care of Dani Jo will be a piece of cake compared to all of the legal, insurance, etc. paperwork we have to battle with.
I miss my baby girl. I miss my family being together. I want this empty spot in my heart to go away. I want to stop crying when I lie down at night. Please pray that we will all be together soon. Thanks for listening tonight.
Joey